It was too much.
She wasn’t ready. Nobody was ready.
Etta knew it was coming sooner or later, although she had pushed it to the back of her mind. She knew it was inevitable and she knew there would be pain, lots of pain.
She just didn’t expect for it to hurt that much.
Her father passed away two weeks ago. And since then, it was like the time stopped. Or was it her who got somehow stuck, while the time continued to pass like nothing happened? Every day was just another endless, meaningless loop, filled only with quiet and solitude and pain.
There were moments when they couldn’t even look at each other. Etta never realized how isolating grief could be. The pain pushed each of them to their own corner, grief separating them like a deep, bottomless chasm nobody dared to bridge and they could do nothing but cry.
But there were other moments, too. Moments filled with special memories that brought smiles to their faces. Moments when they took care of each other. Moments of deepest gratitude. Those moments kept them trying to go on.
Except for mom. She buried herself in her room, helpless and desperate and if it wasn’t for a few muffled sobs here and there, Etta would thought her mom died as well. Come to think of it, she probably did a little bit.
For two weeks, she lay in tears in bed all day, staring at the empty space by her side. She wasn’t speaking, she wasn’t eating and she wasn’t leaving the room, either.
Etta was worried. She wanted to give her all the time she needed, but she also wanted her mom back. Everyone wanted her back.
Knocking was deafening as it echoed in quiet corridors of their house. The annoyed voice coming from behind the closed door even more so.
Etta slowly opened the door and corrected her mother.
She entered the room and found Melia curled up in bed. She was pale, limp, with watery eyes and gray tint to the skin. When she heard Etta’s voice, she fought against the apathy she’d indulged in for days and sat up straight.
For a minute, they sat there in silence.
Her voice broke as she tried to answer and she burst into tears, sobbing violently. Etta didn’t know what to say and she felt her own tears building up in her eyes at the sight, so she remained queit.
It took a few dreadful minutes for mom to calm down. Etta desperately wanted to comfort her, to say or do something that would help. But if she knew the words she would have said them a long time ago. First of all to herself.
When her mom finally spoke again, her voice was rough and uneasy.
She inhaled heavily and started mumbling under her breath. Etta could barely make out the words.
Etta didn’t understand. Her mom was saying all those good things and yet, she said it with such an unhappy, remorseful face like it was a terrible tragedy.
Etta couldn’t believe her ears. She knew her mom was grieving but these words were madness. She was certain her dad would never approve of thoughts like that.
The defeated tone in her voice broke Etta’s heart.
Her mom just sat there quietly and stared at the wall in front of her. She was still obviously distraught, but her face looked more thoughtful than devastated. Etta was watching her changing expression carefully, ready to blurt out more arguments any second.
After another long pause, her mother stood up and forced a smile as she locked her daughter in a hug.
#Earlysquad!! Anyway, great chapter. This story is one of the ones that inspires me to right!
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I mean *write lol 😂
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Wow, I can’t imagine a better compliment than that! Thank you so much – your words are the reason why it’s worth it.
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That was sad and sweet .
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Thanks! I found it mostly sad when I was writing it, so I’m really glad it didn’t turned out too weepy.
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It was definitely sad, but the end was beautiful .
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Oh Chris! 😦 Poor Melia. It’s so heartbreaking to see her so broken. I’m glad that Etta had the courage and most of all, the compassion to lift her mother’s spirits. It’s not always easy to comfort a loved one, much less your own mum when it’s your dad that’s passed away.
I’m so excited for the restaurant! A baby step towards Etta’s own dreams! I hope that opening it and serving in the TV show as a judge will be healthy for Melia – it’ll keep her mind busy and her heart will ache less if there’s something meaningful to occupy her time. 🙂
Loving the emotion in this chapter! All the love and sadness and excitement, all rolled into one. ❤
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Thank you! Writing this kind of chapters is tough for me, because the emotions can be quite intense. What Melia is going through, well, I can’t even imagine the pain, to be honest. My age is my enemy in this case.
I agree that Etta’s actions here were brave and I think she acted far beyond her years. Again, I don’t know if I, myself, would have find the strength in a similar situation.
I’m excited about Melia, too! She reached level 10 of the Culinary career on a same day Chris died and I just found it so sad he couldn’t share that moment with her, especially since they were both Foodies and their love for food was what brought them together in the first place.
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